Reverent Protector

Let me protect your heart

With all that I have

Let me cradle your sorrows in my hands that were built from holding my own

I’ve practiced enough times

So no need to worry that I’ll handle yours wrong

I’ve held my sadness and desperation like an infant that was made of glass

And I’ve put my heart back together like Lego just without the instruction manual

But at least now I have an example

Because I was the test subject

The one who tested so others can walk without fear

My losses were lessons

To adjust and adapt

Fix and repair

So next time

I don’t make the same mistake

So I don’t repeat the same pain

So I don’t drive myself to insanity 

Though I’ve been close

Looking down at the ground that would catch me if I walked off

But I stepped back

Even when the temptation was strong

Death would be more merciful than my mind making mazes of my thoughts

I'm not afraid of it

The only thing I'm afraid of is how the people around me would be affected

Even up there I would still feel bad and haunted by my decision 

So believe me when I say

I will lull your sadness to sleep

Rock your pain to stillness 

And watch over your mind like a guardian that has one purpose and one purpose only

Protect the heart that is beating with reverence to keep you alive

Because that’s more than enough